ADAPTATION

Sept. 20,2010.. Payday plus the second to the last day (or night) for the week.. Avail.. Everyone's just happy and excited.. Yung tipong ang fave line for the night eh, "Let's party!"..  The shift ended as if nothing would happen.. Then a news came-in.. A party pooper.. We (Christian and I) were about to go to the apartment ( i mean quarters) when Tom (Renelle Guiseppe) called him to report that something was going on with our beloved account.. They are going to train daw agents from our account for VMU (sister company of our client).. And the worse part is, we're still gonna stay with our old account.. That means we would have two LOBs (Line of Business) or accounts. SO just imagine yourself taking calls for two different companies.. At syempre, good news! Kasama ako sa mga piling ahente na balak nilang pahirapan.. Hahahah! At eto pa, para naman medyo hindi mabigat sa loob ko, eh pinaalam sakin ng supervisor ko nung last day na namin na yung training ko daw eh magstart na following week.. That means, i only have 3 days to prepare.. Well, there was actually nothing naman that i have to prepare.. Well aside from my emotional capability to adapt.. At syempre yung welcome message ko para sa mga future friends and whatever.. Hahaha!! Ayun..


So the next week came.. And as usual, i was late for an hour.. Haaaay!
But buti nalang madaming late.. Kasi mali din yung building na pinuntahan nila.. There were only two persons that i know.. It was Chris Logador (a gay), and JB Pempil (a fellow one).. But i decided to sit at the back portion of the training room since i was left with no choice but to sit there.. Everything was okay naman.. The trainer was good, walang masyadong maarteng classmate (syempre ayokong may mas nag-iinarte pa.. heheh), at walang masyadong ginagawa..  Yun nga lang, walang masyadong CRUSH material..


Super thinking parin about dun noh?! Hahah.. I just realized na beneficial din naman pala sakin yung training.. A breathe of fresh air ika nga.. It was good that our training room is just located in the same building where we take calls.. So i could still visit and get in touch with my teammates.. So ayun.. I started telling them about the training.. And they were like "Nakuh friend! Ayan ka nanaman.. Crushes nanaman!", that i just answered with a quote "It is easier to be happy thinking that today will be okay than to cry for the past.". Which is true right? I just realized that i also have to move on.. That i have to just pay my attention to somebody else.. And in this case, it happened again that i've got my eyes on two persons.. I won't tell you muna who they are.. Basta all i know is that I'm happy.. At least for now, i am.. Stress-free yung buhay ko eh! Hahaha!!


At some point after you've given enough, or sometimes even more than enough, you will just feel na parang nakakapagod na.. Diba nga, even the greenest leaf fall? So ayun, mabuti naman at hindi ko na kinailangang literal na iuntog yung ulo ko para lang marealize na hindi na worthwhile yung ginagawa ko..


Haaay.. Lurx.. Kelan ka nga ba matatapos? Yung tipong naka-move ka na.. Pero hindi naman dahil sa nakahanap ka nanaman ng bagong crush..


"Law of displacement says that nothing would be displaced unless it has been replaced with something else.. Converted into law of love? You will never fall out of love, unless you fell inlove with somebody else.."


Ewan ko.. Pero kung ganun nga, ehdi ang sagwa naman.. Walang katapusang trahedya para sa mga pusong hindi kumokunsulta sa utak.. Paulit-ulit lang silang masasaktan.. Saka nasaan dun yung true love? Hindi ba pwedeng wala sa process of moving on yung "falling inlove again"? Hehehe.. I remember my friend Christian Aragon advising me na bakit daw hindi ko nalang ituon yung pansin at panahon ko sa ibang mga bagay.. For example; career, friends, family, business, pag-aaral, paggala, pagkain, at sa sarili ko.. And at the back of my mind (which i sometimes voice out), i always answered it with a joke; "Bakit? Pwede ko bang i-kiss yung friends? Makakasex ko ba yung pag-aaral? Makakadate ko ba yung career? Hahahah!".. But it's not that i've never tried it.. In fact, i've tried it a million times already..Pero wala eh.. Kahit gaano ako kapursigido, basta may cute lang na dumaan eh umaandar nanaman yung kaartehan ko.. Hahaha! Ilang beses ko naring prinomise sa sarili ko na hindi na ako maiinlove ng basta basta lang.. At hayun! Hindi ko pa ata natatapos yung sentence eh malalaman ko nalang bigla na hooked nanaman ako sa kung sino man..


I have a choice.. I've always had a choice.. But i guess I'm always choosing the wrong one.. Tama nga siguro.. You will always see what is wrong when you're doing the right.. But you will never know what is right when you're happy doing the wrong.. Siguro ang panlaban ko nalang talaga yung adaptation skills ko.. Hahahah! Yung tipong ngayon lang, umiiyak ako para sa isang tao at isunusumpa na sya lang yung kaya kong mahalin churva, tapos pag may dumaan na cute eh biglang magpapahid ng luha kasi nakakahiya dun sa dumaan, sabihin pa eh ang dugyot ko naman.. Then after a minute, ayun.. may iba nang bukang bibig.. Yung dumaan..




-Sept.1, 2010
training room 3