HOLY WEEK

Maundy Thursday

Holy week.. Yey! Bakasyon!
I know it's kinda off to celebrate at this period but, I can't help it.. Well it's not really that I'm going to party or make a celebration whatever but I mean, I kinda feel jolly.. Kasi naman, eto lang yung time na matetext or makakausap ko sya ng bonggang bongga dahil nga my sched has been a big conflict these past few days since I started working again.. So ayun.. I'm really glad holy week na and wala akong pasok till Sunday.. Sana nga, when I come back to work, may chance na mabago yung sched ko till June or at least till lam nyo na, he flies out of the country,,

Actually, as I was typing this, my mom is still trying to convince me to come with them sa bahay namin sa bundok.. And of course, I'm trying to opt out.. Heheh.. Eh kasi walang signal dun.. So syempre paano ako magtetext diba? Siguro kung bongga lang yung signal dun, they wouldn't need ask me twice..

Anyways, okay naman yung training ko.. Syempre still trying to adjust kasi nga I can't miss my phone.. (although busy rin naman sya) So I kinda hide it inside my pocket and bring it inside the room.. Not so that I could text from there but at least, I would be notified real-time.. Kahit na medyo delay parin ako magreply kasi nga I can't go out naman immediately while someone's discussing..

Buti nalang mababait yung mga bagong teammates ko.. And speaking of which, I have two teammates na gay or BI daw yung isa ekek.. Aries is the ex-crossdresser and Marky is a BI daw.. Like he hates cross dressing but his actions are so gay naman,, Hahah.. Then we always talk about the gay things (well not the green ones)..  Tapos one day, Marky was texting somebody then he exclaimed; "Haaay nakuh! Masyado ka kasing bakla eh.." which pertains to the guy that he was texting.. Then he followed; "Nakita ko na kasi to, eh masyado tong gay.. Kaso sobrang bait nya kasi kaya di ko naman sya maturn down..". So I asked him (since he admits naman na he really likes straight acting guys); "So ayaw mo sa kanya dahil masyado syang gay pero ayaw mong aminin sa kanya? Eh anong nalang sinasabi mo?".. "Tinetext ko parin naman sya.. Pero sinasabi ko nalang na mahal ko pa yung Ex ko.. Di ko kasi masabi sa kanya yung totoo kasi nga mabait sya saka sobrang sweet.. Tapos sya pa nag-alaga sakin nung may nalasing ako.." yun naman yung sagot nya..
So follow up agad ako; "Ah okay.. Pero sure ka na ba na wala syang chance sayo?".. Then he said "Yeah.. Sure akong wala.."

Wala lang.. nagwonder lang ako since hindi ko pa naman nakikilala talaga si JS, inisip ko kung ganon din ba sya.. Inisip ko lang na baka nahihirapan na din talaga sya but he doesn't wanna turn me down.. Concerned lang ako kasi ayoko naman na pahirapan sya.. So at least I would know how he wants to be treated diba? Ayun.. Naconfuse lang ako since hindi naman talaga ako masyadong na-orient tungkol sa BI differences.. Heheh..

9:30pm
Haaay! Bongga! Hindi ko nanaman natapos to on time.. Kasi naman I had to join them sa bundok.. Haha! No choice ako.. I planned sana na umuwi ng maaga.. Kaso nahiya naman ako sa parents ko kasi ngayon na nga lang naman nila ako makakasama tapos mag-iinarte pako.. So ayun.. I had to stay there..
Okay parin naman yung place.. Aside from yung sapa  eh nagmukhang canal, at yung ibaba nung bahay ay nagmukhang classroom..
Honestly, nakakarelax talaga yung place.. Malamig at malinis yung hangin, tahimik yung paligid, saka puro halaman..
Yun nga lang nakakastress kasi nga walang signal..

Nung hapon, nag-aakyat ako ng puno at nagtake ng photographs (or should I call it as pagsasayang ng battery?) ng kung anu-ano.. But since, it ay isang BLOG, I only posted some of it.. The rest, I posted it somewhere else.. Heheh..

Tapos around 4pm, nagpunta ako sa likod bahay.. May elevated part dun yung lupa na nilagyan nila ng folding bed.. Grabe yun yung part na sobrang nakakaantok yung ambiance.. Tapos since nakadapa ako and I can see the soil, napagkatuwaan kong magform ng name.. So ayun.. Eto na yung pictures..

This one is my favorite.. :) My burning heart.. 

I had to put some solvent here so it would show the color of the leaves.. RED.. 

 Another heart on fire..

Then, I fell asleep.. Pak! Paggising ko, 8pm na.. Sobrang gusto ko tuloy maghysterical.. Hahah! So ayun.. Nagpahatid nako pabalik dito sa kabayanan.. Heheh..

Have a nice and safe holy week!
Lalo na kaw JS! :)

Girl: Ano ba? Bakit ka ba sunod nang sunod sakin hah? Naaasar nakoh..

Boy: Ah ganun ba? Sorry huh! Sabi kasi ng nanay ko, "FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS"..

Hahah! I can relate,, Chos!

WO AI NI!!


April 21, 2011
10:26pm

Dreams and Insanity

Was it a dream?

Or have I lost my sanity?

I was in a journey filled with certainty,

The straight path that leads to naivety..

It was a strong, wide, pleasant and certain road that adopted me,

While some characters kept me company..

There I continued each step without worry,

For some friends helped me..

CONFIDENCE has been with me from my entry,

While it was INDIFFERENCE who played with me..

STRENGTH has been so supportive in locking EMOTIONS,

So BLINDESS could play its part in welcoming LIES..

ANXIETY, I left it..

It was journey so care-free,

None of the trials could conquer me..

It was a walk so long you couldn't stop,

But goal of certainty always protected me..

It was safe but rather dull,

There was comfort but rather numbness..

I couldn't hear plaints but neither laughter,

As sadness couldn't be felt as the heartbeats were monotonous..

I continued to step till something hit my sight,

It was a seed sitting on the road outside the light..

I took it my hand and let the soil take it,

And result has taken me aback..

What had turned up was a rainbow,

Leading contrary to what have a taken a bow..

Slowly I ascended,

Still amused but rather confused..

Safety and carelessness  has taken its toll on me,

I climbed up away from certainty..

Winds of curiosity swaying my hair,

Still confused who invited despair..

I felt like I was LOST but rather FREE,

As I glided down, brushed certainty, and welcomed possibilites..

Then a sudden blink of light united me with reality,

Questioning, as confusion was still embracing me..

Was it a dream?

Or have I lost my sanity?

Then my eyes wandered to get some  answers,

As uncertainty is all that welcomed me in that reality..

Contrary to what was past,

Solitude is present here where darkness is vast..

Then like the seed which hit my sight,

I saw an image standing under the spotlight..

Like an angel as white as snow,

While the face was under the hair full of stardust..

Then like the urge to rushed in,

And I jumped off the cliff where I was standing..

But with my limbs weak and my faith even weaker,

The cliff where you stood seemed farther..

But before I fell, you caught my hand,

But the gravity was stronger and pulled us together..

Your face still remained invisible,

But holding your hand was more than what's imaginable..

We kept on falling in that never ending steep,

As my heart kept on skipping a beat..

Falling that has never felt good and easy,

Till then when I've got you with me..

It was cold and the silence seems to be the only thing living,

As PAIN, SUFFERING, and SEPARATION were lurking..

But holding your hands gives the best and overwhleming feeling,

As we kept on falling, falling, and falling..

I recognized that feeling,

Something that cut-off my heart's longing..

It the same feeling I get,

When flowers give that scent, when the stars shine and waves makes me wet..

That feeling when flowers give that scent,

Something that rejuvinates my spirit..

That scent that made my heart awake,

Something that puts a smile on my face whenever I can't..

Its the feeling I get when the stars shine on me,

The courage it gives me as it shines the path for me..

That shine which keeps me company,

and fulfill its promise to guide me..

Its the feeling I get when the waves makes wet,

As it embraces me and makes me a part of it..

That feeling of LOVE itleaves,

After it embraces me and I couldn't do the same..

Then as we continue to fall,

happiness conquered confusion,

the battle for certainty ended as LOVE ascended,

And walls of my heart's defence shattered, but anxiety wasn't invited..

Or is this all an illusion?

And when will we stop falling?

Then a slight touch reunited me with reality,

What has happened with me?

Was it a dream within a dream,

Or have I lost my sanity?

Then I felt that hand that touched me,

And a static feeling rushed in me..

It was that face that was missing in the past,

And you are close to me at last..

Am I dreaming?

Or have I lost my sanity?

Now that you're here with me,

I don't care what the answer will be..

I just wanna be with you eternally..

In dreams or insanity..

IF (a poem)

If I could be the sun who wakes you up,

then I would shine on you and greet your morning with my warmth..

But I can only wait for you to get up,

And check if you’ve a great night..

If I could make your meals every time,

Then I would even serve them ahead of time..

But to check on you from time to time is all I can do,

Making sure your tummy all the time feels comfortable too..

If I could be your shield everyday,

Then I would make sure that no harm comes your way..

But “take care” I can only say,

Pray and hope for your safety as you’re away..

If could come to you whenever you need comfort,

Then I would be a handkerchief to dry your tears..

But I can only give you my ears,

And assure you that I am with you..

If I could paint your face,

Then I would paint a smile on it..

But I can only memorize your face,

And make you smile whenever  I can..

If I could be your umbrella,

Then I would keep your head and even your soles dry..

But wishing is all I can do,

That it’s not illness but serenity that you’d get if you got wet..

If I could be with you all the time,

Then I would spend my every minute beside you..

But “I’m missing you” I can only say,

Wishing I could spend my lifetime with you someday..

If I can be the music that your soul dances with,

Then I would be the soundtrack to cover your whole life’s melody..

But sharing you my own music is all I can do,

Compose and play songs from my heart to you..

If I could be your doctor to heal your every pain,

Then I would give you all the medicine that world has..

But to be your nurse is all I can be,

Who will never leave, nor stop caring and loving you while you heal..

If I could be the God who gives you life,

Then I’d give you the key to live eternally..

But share my life with you is all I can do,

Or give you my life if I need to..

If I could take your heart and set the shape of it,

I would mold it to the shape of my heart..

BUt I can only wait, not for the day that I can mold it,

But for the day that your heart would beat fast, regularly, and healthily again..

Whoever the sculptor may be..

If I could love again,

I would still be inlove with you..

Cause loving you is all I can do,

And the only thing that I want to do..

New And Missing You

First week of work..
Nakakapanibago..
It's been 3 months that i was a bum and used to be in PETICS mode so it kinda needed some getting used to at first..
But everything was fine.. The environment was pretty good, the people were nice and the whole company's nice..
But there's only one thing that if I could change, I definitely would.. It's the sched.. Well for my other new team mates, it is kinda beneficial since it gives a night differential and a hazard fee.. But for me, It is a social life destroyer..
Heheh.. Wala lang.. As I've mentioned in my previous posts, the sched is conflicting with my loLOVEs free time.. Kasi nga diba gabi ko lang sya nakakausap kasi most of the time, busy sya pag umaga.. So ayun.. Hindi ako sanay na hindi sya natetext.. Haha! Ang arte!

Well anyway, some of the policies of this company are kinda weird.. Like we can't tell to the public the name of the company that we're working for.. Then, yung welcome kit naman nila na may bag, pouch saka mug eh may logo or name nung company.. Haha! Kamusta naman diba? Wag ipagsabi? Ipakita lang? hahah!

Nakakatuwa rin kasi we have unlimited MILO.. Yeee!!! Saka the prices of the foods are justifiable naman..

The company's rules are more strict than my previous company.. Pero mas supportive yung ngayon saka mas fair yung compensation and benefits.. It seems they really value their people..

But no matter how the ambiance of the new company seems, syempre you'd still miss your old teammates and friends.. Lalo pako since I've worked with them for more than 1 year..

But honestly, what I miss the most is him.. Ewan ko.. Very ironic nga eh.. Kasi dumating yung job kung kelan ayoko pa.. Kung kelan pa almost two months nalang eh aalis na sya.. Ewan ko.. Hahah! Napaka crazy nung feeling.. Basta miss ko na sya.. Sobraaaa..

Kanina, habang nag-uusap kami ng mga bago kong teammates (LUNA which is a very nice woman, MARKY which is Bi or rather sometimes a discreet gay, ARIES which is a former crosser dresser.. yep I just found out that there's such.. and KAT which is a very nice and tahimik girl na pretty din), I wondered kung anong klaseng tao nga ba yung loLOVEs ko since we're talking about the BI's and Gays and their relationships.. Sabi kasi ni Aries, yung mga cross dressers doesn't really fall or doesn't usually get to have a relationship with BIs at puro straight lang daw nagugustuhan nila.. Kasi vice versa, yung mga BIs din daw di rin naman pumapatol sa mga cross dressers.. Eh yun din naman yung point of view ko.. Then I got confused.. Kasi kahit ako, di makapaniwala nung una that I'm inlove with a BI.. Eh kasi hindi naman ako Bi saka most of the time eh nag crocross dress ako.. Although hindi naman super.. Mahilig din  naman kasi ako sa simpleng TSHIRT lang at shorts.. Ewan ko.. Kasi pabago bago rin naman ako ng image depende sa trip  ko.. Kagaya nugn second day namin, rakista naman yung look ko.. haha! I love dressing up like that eh.. Yung pabago bago.. They even got suprised nga that CARL (yeah that's my second given name) is the name that I want them to call me.. They were asking me nga kung mas gusto ko raw ba tawagin ako in a different name kasi masyado daw masculine.. Sabi ko no.. Di naman kasi ako nasanay na tawagin sa ibang girly name.. Heheh.. Kaya ayun.. Bigla lang ako naconfuse.. Alam mo naman yun loLOVEs diba? :)

Speaking of which, busy sya today kasi he's gonna watch a concert in Araneta.. Funny nga kasi as I was about to ask him kung anong papanoorin nyang concert, a news flashed in about the concert tonight in Araneta.. It's the Script daw who would have a concert.. Hehe.. The same band that I've learned through him.. Inggit nga ako eh.. Heheh.. Or maybe baka naman it's because gusto ko din sya makasama na mapanood yung band.. So we could share the same extraordinary experience..
I guess isa lang yung sa mga events at happenings that I wanna spend with him.. Isa lang sa thousands of experiences that I wanna  have with him in a lifetime.. It might be really too early to say that.. (haha.. I just hope na by this time eh hindi pa sya nagfrefreak out.. muah!) Pero yun talaga yung nafefeel ko ngayon.. Still the same feeling that I've had since I created my very first post about him.. Hahah.. Sana hindi ako OA no? :)

So sa ngayon, eto yung song ko sa kanya with a promise that I'll never leave..

Panahon ay lilipas din 

Mga araw ay daraan 

Ang mundo ay papanaw din ngunit hindi ang aking puso 

Ngunit hindi ang pagibig ko syo 

Habang buhay kita mamahalin 

Habang buhay kita hihintayin 

Habang buhay kita mamahalin, magpakailanman 

Kaya ayun.. I'm glad nagtext ka tonight.. So with all my love,
*muahugz* WO AI NI!

I'd say

"Do you LOVE me?", he'd ask, as we sit on the sand..

And I'd stop and think for a while..

Then I'd take his hand, and say;

"Just as how certain as you are that this is your hand,

Is how I'm certain that I LOVE you."

And we'd both sit, and hold each others' hand..

"Why do you LOVE me?", he'd ask, we lie on the grass..

And I'd stop and think for a while..

Then I'd kiss his ear and say;

"Just like breathing that I don't know why I do,

I don't think of the reason.. But I just do.."

Then we'd stare at the stars as we lie on the grass..

"Until when would you love me?" he'd ask, as I build castles from sand..

And I'd stop and think for a while..

Then I'd take and fill his hand with sand and say;

"I'm gonna love you until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand.."

Then all day we'd let ourselves be caressed by the sea and the sand..

"Would you still LOVE me?" he'd ask, as he was lying on the bed waiting for it..

And I'd stop and think for a while..

Then I'd stare at his eyes and say;

"As much as I loved you when I first met you till now, I'm gonna love you.."

"But not here.." I'd say after kissing his lips..

"Cause I'm gonna go with you.. So that not even death could do us part.."

Then I'd hold his hand, and lay beside him.. While waiting for light..

One Last Song..

Yep.. before I forget, I really love this song.. Hear it babe! :) It's the song from The Script that I was talking about.. The title is BREAKEVEN and this version is from Maddi Jane..

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in

'Cause I got time while she got freedom

'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven

Her best days will be some of my worst

She finally met a man that's gonna put her first

While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping

'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

What am I suppose to do

When the best part of me was always you and

What am I suppose to say

When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah

I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason

But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding

'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving

And when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

What am I gonna do

When the best part of me was always you

And what am I suppose to say

When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah

I'm falling to pieces, yeah

I'm falling to pieces

(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)

I'm falling to pieces

('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain

You took your suitcase, I took the blame

Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh

'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in

'Cause I got time while she got freedom

'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break

No it don't break, no it don't breakeven, no

What am I gonna do

When the best part of me was always you

And what am I supposed to say

When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah

I'm falling to pieces, yeah

I'm falling to pieces

(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)

I'm falling to pieces

('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)

Oh, it don't breakeven, no

Oh, it don't breakeven, no

Oh, it don't breakeven, no

SONG that I'd like to sing FOR YOU

I've a got a lotta songs in my mind lately and I just couldn't send them thru phone..
So, I took this chance to post them and I'd like you to know that these are the songs that I would have wanted to sing to you.. So I just hope you can listen to them one by one.. And I really picked what I think are the best versions so.. Enjoy! These songs mean a lot to me.. LOVE YOU!

This one is called "wait for you" from Elliot Yamin.. It has always been in my playlist and now, I'd like to dedicate it to you.. I'm not gonna write the lyrics anymore since I believe it's already in the video..

The second song in line is a song that just woke me up one morning cause the lyrics were really good.. Aside from the vocalist's angelic voice.. So I hope you'll like it too, the song called PORQUE by MALDITA..

 

Tulala lang sa’king kwarto

At nagmu-muni-muni

Ang tanong sa’king sarili

Sa’n ako nagkamali

Bakit sa’yo pa nagkagusto

Parang bula ika’y naglaho

Chorus:

Porque contigo yo ya iskuji

Aura mi corazon ta supri

Bien simple lang iyo ta pidi

Era cinti tu el cosa yo ya cinti

Ta pidi milagro, vira’l tiempo

El mali hace derecho

Na dimio reso ta pidi yo

Era olvidas yo contigo

Ang lahat ay binigay ko

Ngayon ay sising-sisi

Sobra sobra ang parusa

Di alam kung kaya pa

Wag nang lumapit

At tumawag pa at baka masampal lang kita

Di babalikan

Magsisi ka man

Ako ay lisanin

Porque contigo yo ya iskuji

Aura mi corazon ta supri

Bien simple lang iyo ta pidi

Era cinti tu el cosa yo ya cinti

Bakit ikaw pa ang napili

Ngayon ang puso ko ay sawi

Kay simple lang ng aking hiling

Na madama mo rin ang pait at pighati

Sana’y magmilagro

Mabalik ko

Mali ay maiderecho

Pinagdarasal ko sa’king puso

Na mabura na sa isip ko

Okay.. This song is my recent favorite.. I didn't like it when it was released but when you came along, I just thought of telling you the lines everyday.. Cause.. You are amazing.. Just the way you are.. :) And this is a cover by Maddi Jane (yeah I like her version more).. 

Oh his eyes, his eyes
Make the stars look like they’re not shining
His hair,his hair
Falls perfectly without him trying

He’s so wonderful
And I tell him every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment him
He wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think he don’t see what I see

But every time I asks him do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause boy you’re amazing
Just the way you are

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you’re searching for
Then just stay the same

So don’t even bother asking
If you look okay
i'll say

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause boy you’re amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Boy you’re amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause boy you’re amazing
Just the way you are
Yeeeaah !


Alright! This one is called stubborn love by Dr. Jude Bajarias.. I think I've heard this from RX 98.1.. But I'm not really sure.. Anyway, this song really touched me from the first time that I've heard it and it really is an emotional song..  I didn't put the whole lyrics anymore cause it's also in the vid so I just cited some of the lyrics..

Still my hard-headed heart can't be fazed

Still I can't look away from the smile on your face

Stubborn love are you

gonna fall for the same mistake?

Is my heart gonna break?

Stubborn love damn you

Won't you learn from the hurt and pain?

Cause I'm going insane

And I know I can't trust you

I've got to let go..

But my heart has a mind of it's own..

Stubborn love..

Yeah.. I needed to get my hanky for that.. Hehe.. But this next song seems to have the same meaning with Just The Way You Are.. Or maybe they both just want to say that for me, YOU ARE PERFECT.. Okay! This song is called perfect by Pink.. :)

Made a wrong turn, once or twice.
Dug my way out, blood and fire.
Bad decisions, that's alright.
Welcome to my silly life.
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood.
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated.
Look i'm still around.

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel.
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel, like you're nothing.
You're fuckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk, about yourself you were wrong.
Change the voices, in your head, make them like you instead.
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred, such a tired game.
It's enough! I've done all I can think of.
Chased down all my demons, i've seen you do the same.

Woah ohh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel.
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel, like you're nothing.
You're fuckin' perfect to me.

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear.
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer.
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere.
They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair.
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time.
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel.
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel.
Like you're nothing, you're fuckin' perfect to me yeahhh.
You're perfect, you're perfect!
Ohh pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel.
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty please, if you ever ever feel, like you're nothing.
You are perfect to me..

Yep! LoLOVEs you are effin perfect to me.. 

I also kinda like these following songs but not as much as I liked the others... But they are good.. :)

Everybody's laughing in my mind,

Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy,

Do you do what you did when you

did with me?

Does he love you the way I can?

Did you forget all the plans 

that you made with me? 

'cause baby I didn't!

That should be me,

Holdin' your hand,

That should be me

Makin' you laugh,

That should be me,

This is so sad,

That should be me,

That should be me,

That should be me,

Feelin' your kiss,

That should be me,

Buyin' you gifts,

This is so wrong,

I can't go on,

Till you believe that,

That should be me

Ouuuuuuu

ouuuuuuuu

That should be me,

Yeah,

You said you needed a little time

For my mistakes,

It's funny how you used that time 

To have me replaced,

Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies

Whatcha doin' to me,

You're takin' him where we used to go,

Now if you're tryin' to break my heart,

It's working 'cause you know that,...

Chorus:

That should be me,

Holdin' your hand,

That should be me,

Makin' you laugh,

That should be me,

This is so sad,

That should be me,

That should be me,

That should be me,

Feelin' your kiss,

That should be me ,

Buyin' you gifts,

This is so wrong,

I can't go on, 

Till you believe that,

That should be me

I need to know should I fight

For our love for this long

It's getting harder to shield

This pain in my heart!!!

Chorus:

That should be me,

Holdin' your hand,

That should be me,

Makin' you laugh,

That should be me,

This is so sad,

That should be me,

That should be me, 

That should be me,

Feelin' your kiss,

That should be me,

Buyin' you gifts,

This is so wrong,

I can't go on,

Till you believe that,

That should be me,

Holding your hand,

That should be me,

Oh i makin you laugh, oh Baby,

That should be me,

(that should be me givin you flowers)

That should be me,

Talking by hours,that should be me, that should be me,

that should be me

Never should've let you go,!

I never should've let you go,!

That should be me!! <3

Never should've let you go

That should be me!!<3

Yup.. Soo Bieber.. The last song is from my recent favorite band The Script.. And I first heard it from MUSIC UPLATE LIVE while I was typing a blog for my LoLOVEs one night.. So please listen to "NOTHING"..

Am I better off dead, am I better off a quitter

They say I’m better off now, than I ever was with her

As they take me to my local down the street

I’m smiling but I’m dying trying not to drag my feet

They say a few drinks will help me to forget her

But after one too many I know that I’m never

Only they can see where this is gonna end

They all think I’m crazy but to me it’s perfect sense

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down

Cause I’m shouting your name all over town

I’m swearing if I go there now

I can change your mind turn it all around

And I know that I’m drunk but I’ll say the words

And she’ll listen this time even though they’re slurred (?)

Dial her number and confess to her

I’m still in love but all I heard was nothing

(Nothing, nothing …)

So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences

I know if I’m face to face that she’ll come to her senses

Every drunk step I take leads me to her door

If she sees how much I’m hurting

She’ll take me back for sure

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down

Cause I’m shouting your name all over town

I’m swearing if I go there now

I can change your mind turn it all around

And I know that I’m drunk but I’ll say the words

And she’ll listen this time even though they’re slurred (?)

Dial her number and confess to her

I’m still in love but all I heard was nothing

(Nothing, nothing …)

She said nothing (nothing nothing)

Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Oh I got nothing (nothing nothing)

I got nothing (nothing nothing)

Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Bridge

Oh sometimes love is intoxicating

Oh you’re coming down your hands are shaking

When you realize there’s no one waiting

Am I better off dead

Am I better off a quitter

They say I’m better off now

Than I ever was with her

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down

Cause I’m shouting your name all over town

I’m swearing if I go there now

I can change your mind turn it all around

And I know that I’m drunk but I’ll say the words

And she’ll listen this time even though they’re slurred (?)

Dial her number and confess to her

I’m still in love but all I heard was nothing

(Nothing, nothing …)

She said nothing (Nothing, nothing …)

Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Oh I got nothing (Nothing, nothing …)

I got nothing (Nothing, nothing …)

Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Oh I got nothing (Nothing, nothing …)

I got nothing, I got nothing

Okay.. So those are the songs that are I am currently practicing.. Err.. Fail! :) Nope.. They just got stuck in my head.. :) LOVE YOU JS!